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rosemoonweaver:

rosemoonweaver:

Welp. I completely lost one file I was working on. Awesome. 

@unforth-ninawaters
Yeah. It was my fault cause I had half a million tabs open but stil. It’s annoying. 

@samanddeaninpanties
I’ve used docs before but I kinda hate it. It’s useful for sharing with betas and stuff but I don’t like it. I dunno why. There’s no good reason for me to hate it, I just do. 

@samanddeaninpanties
😛 You say weird like it’s a bad thing, lol. I know I’m odd, I take great pride in that. 

@unforth-ninawaters
Drop box is great. I used to use that for sharing class notes in my giant history classes all the time. I don’t much anymore but maybe I should try it again. Usually I use the microsoft onedrive cloud. Microsoft has it’s issues, but it’s convenient. If I can’t take my laptop places I can take my tablet so I’ve definitely used it to get writing done in doctors offices from time to time. It wouldn’t hurt to save stuff in the drop box, too though. I’d probably lose fewer files. 

rosemoonweaver:

Welp. I completely lost one file I was working on. Awesome. 

@unforth-ninawaters
Yeah. It was my fault cause I had half a million tabs open but stil. It’s annoying. 

@samanddeaninpanties
I’ve used docs before but I kinda hate it. It’s useful for sharing with betas and stuff but I don’t like it. I dunno why. There’s no good reason for me to hate it, I just do. 

@unforth-ninawaters replied to your post “So I’ve had some time to think and I’ve decided I’m dropping out of…”

*hugs* the line between escapism and a hobby can be fuzzy and hard to find, but it’s worth taking a break to figure it out. Take care of yourself, writing will still be there when you feel better. ❤

Thanks. 

It’s definitely a hard line for me to draw. I’m a very all or nothing kind of person, so finding balance has always been difficult for me. There’s no time like the present, though, so starting to learn that now will be good for me. 

@unforth-ninawaters replied to your post “@unforth-ninawaters replied to your post “@unforth-ninawaters replied…”

Well fwiw what I did was over the course of a few months I wrote “lies my brain tells me” down on slips of paper and kept them in a jar (it was an emptied Yankee Candle jar, so I knew it was fire proof) and when I finally went through a few weeks without adding anything to the bunch I burned the lot. It was…cathartic.

That’s a good idea! It sounds like it could help a lot. Maybe I should do that, too. (My brain is a jackass, too.) 

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(when I was struggling worst I did some ceremonial burning of stuff and also found it helpful. <3)

That’s good to know. 

I’ve been falling behind in my religious practices, too, (I’m Wiccan) so maybe it would be a good reason to get back into some study and candle/paper burning, too. Obviously I’m not in a great place mentally and I haven’t been for a while so it would be a good time to try to rebalance myself. Maybe I’ll go walk around in the woods for a bit or something. 

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I’ll own when I saw the news I was VERY relieved that my next big project/current WIP is Stucky so I don’t have to try to write SPN right now. I’m not sure I could either.

That’s good! Stucky is a lot easier to deal with rn. 

I’m seriously considering writing my serial killer au. If nothing else, It would be a good excuse to kill off  original characters who bare no resemblance to persons real or imagined but might say things I would imagine heartless toads might say and do when they think shock and disgust are the same thing as emotional investment.  Totally imagined, of course. 

I’m just glad I finished Under the Surface. I couldn’t write it now. And my DCJ bang. I still have Chloe’s DCJ fic and that… that’s gonna hurt. 

*sigh*

Maybe I’ll take a week off. 

@unforth-ninawaters replied to your post “I don’t handle emotions well. By my nature I am good at two things,…”

*hugs* maybe print out that story and burn that? I find symbolic stuff like that actually helps me a lot and redirects destructive impulses? Sorry if advice isn’t wanted right now it’s just a thought ignore me – *more hugs*

(I’d post a hug gif but they won’t load. ugh.) Thank you. 

It’s fine. It might actually help. I’ve burnt stuff before, usually in a ritual setting to sybolically get rid of it so it does help, but I don’t have the ink or paper for 100+ pages and I don’t really want to print smut at the library. I might just print a shorter story and burn it sybolically. Or I could write something new in ink and burn that. It would feel good to destroy something. 

It sucks. 

I really don’t want to stop writing but at this point right now it feels hollow. I’ll probably feel better in a few days (hence no rash decisions). Ugh. 

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Yeah I mean I won’t read MCD. I might read cheating – I have before, and liked some and not liked others – and I’m writing at least two stories that involve infidelity- but some people are really uncomfortable with it so better to err on the side of tagging and explaining.

Yeah, I mean, I usually don’t read MCD or infidelity either, but if there is an explanation in author’s notes I’ll be more willing to give it a chance.

I’m just trying to cover my own butt, really. All the characters in this work screw up – some I would argue are worse than others and I almost think there’s something worse than infidelity going on in the fic. But, I can’t control what’s going to turn readers off. Kinda sucks, but it is what it is. That’s the risk you take when you write things where characters screw up.