So there was a cat in my backyard. A very small cat who walked right up to me and started crying and begging for pets. A very dirty, small cat who was hungry and it was cold outside so…
So now there’s a cat in my living room.
Tag: stuff about me
Ao3 Stats Game
I was tagged by @jemariel. Thanks!
What is your total word count on AO3?
304,210 words. Nearly 200k of that was last year alone.
How often do you write?
I try to get something written every day but that doesn’t always happen. When in doubt I daydream which I totally count as part of the writing process.
Do you have a routine for writing?
1) Think of an idea.
2) Daydream about said idea for a while.
3) Sit down and write it.
I could make a joke about crying and being self-deprecating but that doesn’t really help, does it? It may sound boring but I really don’t have any routines or rituals for writing I just do it. Sometimes I’ll have specific mood playlists but most of the time I just throw something on and get to it. There is no secret to it.
What’s your favourite kinks/tropes/pairing?
Depends on my mood, honestly. I will always be here for Mutual Unrequited Pining though (as much of an oxymoron as that is) and Creature Fics.
Do you have a favourite fic of yours?
Some Things Last. Always and forever.
Your fic with the most kudos?
*sigh* This is All Your Fault. It’s an A/B/O pwp and while it’s not bad or anything I still wish a fic I put more work into got more attention.
Anything you don’t like about your writing?
I’m not good at settings. I cheat and take short cuts. I would be a better writer if I took the time to really edit my fics. My sentences are too long sometimes. Everyone always has one eyebrow up and a smirk on their face.
Now something you do like!
*shrugs* I dunno man, I don’t usually have nice things to say about my writing. It exists whether or not it should. I dunno if that’s something I like about it or not, but it’s not something negative.
Tagging: @dragonpressgraphics @omgbubblesomg @samanddeaninpanties @maliciouslycreative and whoever else wants to play.
I was tagged by @gabrielthemoose. Thank you!
Fictional character you relate to most:
I plead the fifth.
Book you can read over and over again without getting tired of it:
Watership Down. I love that book so freaking much.
What’s your favorite comfort show/movie?:
I have a list. My Cousin Vinny, Supernatural, The Lion King, and Legally Blonde all sit close to the top.
Which fictional character are you most defensive over?:
I’m not super defensive over any character, really. No one has to like what I like or who I like. I do get irritated at weak sauce arguments but still… you’re free to have your own opinions no matter how stupid they are.
Show you fell out of love with?:
Doctor Who. I still really enjoy Davies’s episodes but after a certain point I feel like it forgot what it was all about. Sci-fi is usually about reflecting on our human nature and what makes humanity good and bad, but somewhere along the way it all became about The Doctor and basically nothing else.
Show you’re most excited for?:
Wayward Sisters. I’m pretty hopeful that the show will take off and give me more Claire. I love Claire.
What’s your aesthetic?:
Oh man I have no flipping idea. Whatever the intersection between panda earnings, biker boots, fandom shit, and endless unused journals and dark eye make-up is. Nerd probably.
Favorite fanfic tropes:
Enemies to Lovers, Battle Couples, Snarky Banter, Mutual Unrequited Pining, Creature Fics and Two Person Love Triangles.
I tag…. @trisscar368 @intotheruins and whoever else wants to do this.
To the friends who have tagged me in writing games that involve posting part of current projects – sorry, most of what I’m doing rn isn’t shareable. BUT! Like the moron I am I’m starting a new thing so maybe I’ll actually be able to share some of that. 🙂
2017 Writing Round Up
I was tagged by @skepticalghouligan which is awesome b/c I was trying to find the one I did last year to do it again! Woo! Thank you!
Also! Sorry this took so fucking long. I honestly forgot about it and when I remembered I didn’t have the spoons to dig through my ao3. BUT I did it now so whatever.
Total 2017 Word Count on AO3: 194,929
Total written: 247,035 (includes things that have been written but not posted)
Total 2017 Hits:
23,037
Other 2017 Stats
Kudos: 1,734
Comment threads: 304
Bookmarks: 293
Total 2016 Word Count: 88,580
Total 2016 Hits:
35,004
Other 2016 Stats:
Kudos: 2,653
Comment threads: 121
Bookmarks: 337
Links and Titles to 2017 Works
Some things were probably posted at other times, too, but ao3 only tells me when the final chapters of WIPs were posted so that’s why Under the Surface only shows up once.
January
no works posted
February
no works posted
Four Can Play At That Game (Winjimstiel)
April
You Can’t Say That (Michean)
Some Things Last (Deanjimstiel)
Lipstick and Love Notes (Abaddon/Meg)
Nightmares and Teddy Bears (Anna/Ruby)
Odes to College Love (Sam/Brady)
June
Bliss (Wincest)
Passive-Aggressive Undertaking (Dean/Ketch, Dean/Meg, Dean/Ketch/Meg)
The Bed Solution (Winjimstiel)
Maybe Florida Isn’t So Bad (Donna/Jody)
Stuck in a Snowglobe (Dean/Ketch)
July
The Dragon’s Keep (Wincest) WIP
Maybe It’s Fairies (Eileen/Jess/Sam)
Jimmy, Jemma, and Cas (Deanjimstiel)
Shut Your Mouth (I’ll Shut it For You) (Destiel)
Crash and Burn (Cas/Dean/Inias/Sam)
August
The First Loves of Dean Winchester (Dean/OMCs, Dean/OFCs)
September
Lazy Sunday (Dean/Victor)
October
Angel Lust (Sam/Jimmy)
November
A Little More Than Super Friends (Deanjimstiel)
Night at the Fish Zoo (Deanjimstiel)
December
These Roads We Take (Wincest)
Best Writing Month: Apparently, it was May which doesn’t really surprise me. I had a pretty good run there in the spring and early summer and I was much more productive than I had been in the past.
Worst Writing Month: August, for sure. I hit a bit of a slump with my writing and it all pretty much slowed to a halt after August. It’s started to pick up again towards the end of the year, but August was a rough month on me. Even though I didn’t post anything in January and February, I was working on bang projects, so I wasn’t doing nothing. August was a painful month for writing and mental health, though, so I don’t feel bad about only publishing one thing.
Favorite Fic: Some Things Last. It was my longest fic and my most love to date. I put a lot into it and I’m very happy with it now.
Hardest Fic: Crash and Burn. I was really disappointed in that fic tbh. It’s short and didn’t hit the tone I wanted but in the end I figured I might as well post it because I’d written it anyway. It’s not my favorite, it was a pain to write, and I’ll probably forget about it.
Do you plan to take prompts in 2018? I keep saying no but I wind up doing it anyways so probably.
What was the best thing about 2017? That word count! Just look at that thing! That’s the most I’ve written in a single year, probably. I’m proud of it 🙂
What was the worst thing about 2017? Depression. I mean, depression in general sucks but it kicked my ass this last year. I’m hoping to kick it’s ass this year.
Any last thoughts for 2017? Good riddance you garbage year!
No, but seriously, it wasn’t as bad as it could have been. I did manage a lot of writing for the year and I’m proud of that. It kinda sucked in other areas, but I did my best and I can feel good about that.
Goals for 2018: My goal isn’t to write more. My goal is to write what I want to and allow myself more freedom. I tend to push too hard and then I wind up writing things I dislike and then writing becomes a chore. I don’t want to do that anymore. My goal is to finish what I started and bring joy back into my writing.
Also, I’d like to switch it up a bit. I’m not leaving my current fandom, but I do want to play around with some different stuff. That excites me.
I love my friends but it seriously sucks that I don’t have anyone to shriek like a lunatic with when it comes to things they aren’t into.
I suppose I need more friends.
types of people
honey: lipstick, a sweet voice, confident laughter, handwritten notes, tries their best, loves fashion and dogs, bright eyes like the sun, new cities, good grades
woodsmoke: tired souls, ticket stubs and street maps from places they’ve visited, bodies full of untold stories, missing the train, coffee, gentle words
wisteria: dreamy evenings, freshly-baked cinnamon rolls, sipping tea, writing in a diary, thick, worn-out jumpers, handfuls of flowers, falling in love, book piles
saltwater: dark, tousled hair, ripped jeans, paintbrushes, lofty grins, swallowing hard, a little broken, trying desperately to be a good person
ink: soft aching hands buried in messy hair, tragic smiles, scribbling on dusty parchment, ancient ruins, attic windows, stars, cups of tea gone cold
thunderstorms: leather jackets, eyeliner wings, sharpening their smiles, lace-up boots, vinyl records, wikipedia articles, tangled earphones, cigarette afternoons
I’m Back Now
…for the most part.
I definitely feel better. Getting some time away has allowed me to put things in perspective and sort out some priorities. It’s very easy for me to get overwhelmed, but I think having a few days where I wasn’t beating myself up over everything was good for me.
I’ve made a few changes that I figure are for the best. Also, I didn’t finish my blanket but that’s okay. I actually spent some time with my dad and we got along surprisingly. It was definitely different but it was nice.
So. I have returned. I’m not like… magically enthused about everything the way I once was, but I’m not like… irritated on principle. So that’s a win.
A Small Hiatus
Hey there, everyone! As you may have noticed I haven’t been super active on here recently and I’ve probably also been a little snappish. I’ve been pretty burnt out and things that used to be fun for me aren’t anymore. I’m hoping a small break might help me feel better and get me more excited about the things that I love.
I’m not in a good place mentally. I try to put on a good front but most days I’m just trying to ignore the fact that I hate my life and basically everything in it and have no hope for the future. I need to take a break and not let this swallow me. So I’m taking a step back and I’m going to re-evaluate things. I need a break from the crap I keep running in to. I need to breathe.
I have my queue set up and ready to go so you’ll still see posts from me but I’m not going to be on. I’ll still be running my hours at weekend writing marathon on Tuesday and Wednesday. I most likely won’t be back ‘til Friday.
Anyway I just wanted to let you all know what was going on. I’ll see you around, hopefully with some more enthusiasm and most of a completed afghan.
All these writing projects so what do I do instead? I knit.
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