”This is an apology pizza. Please take it or I will start crying right here.”
(Uh, I better figure out how to make these shorter…I’m a bit verbose.)
“Dean?” The knock at his bedroom door sounded terrified, if that was possible; the voice tentatively saying his name definitely carried more than a little fear, along with trembling anxiety. Dean didn’t say anything, and not just because speaking moved muscles that didn’t like being moved.
The door creaked open a sliver, letting a wedge of lamplight from the hall spill onto the floor of his darkened room. Charlie poked her head through the crack, backlighting throwing her face into shadow. He didn’t need light to know that her eyes were enormously wide, full of guilt. When she saw him sitting up against his headboard, she gulped, almost audibly, before opening the door the rest of the way and stepping inside. Her hands were gripping a wide, flat box in front of her, like a shield.
The way he ought to have gripped his own, really.
“So, this is an apology pizza. Please take it or I will start crying right here,” she said, trying for a light tone. It failed miserably.
He sighed, waving for her to sit down. She dropped onto the foot of the bed, shoulders high with tension. “Can’t really…” he gestured toward the box, then toward his face. “But thanks.”
“Is it really that bad? I can’t see, what with the lights off,” she said, a nervous laugh trying to escape. Dean huffed, then reached over to the lamp on his bedside table. When he clicked it on, Charlie sucked in a breath. He knew exactly what she was seeing: his nose was swollen enormously, bloodied across the bridge, and both his eyes were blackened as though he had gone several rounds with Mike Tyson.
“Oh, Dean,” Charlie whimpered. It was the sympathetic, guilty tears in her eyes, almost ready to spill, that finally made him shake his head and gesture for her to come closer and curl under his arm.
“Not your fault, your highness,” he grumbled. “I should have known better than to underestimate you on the field of combat. I dropped my shield, going for the win, and I deserved what I got.”
“No, but it was an accident!” Charlie protested. “I mean, yeah, I’m pretty badass with a blade, but I was just lifting it to go for a downward strike–I wasn’t trying to catch you in the face with the pommel, I swear!” The LARP blades they’d been using for their mock fight had been mostly foam and lightweight PVC, but the pommel that had broken Dean’s nose was reinforced with heavier materials.
“Accidents happen. I’ll heal,” Dean reassured her. It was true, and he couldn’t stay mad.
“But your date!” she cried. “You were only out there in the first place because of your nerves about tonight!”
And that was the rub. After almost a year of dancing around his own nerves, Dean had finally worked up the courage to ask out the gorgeous guy who’d stolen his breath when he’d first seen him in the cafeteria at work. Castiel worked in a different department, and with only lunch hours to get to know him (and be intimidated as hell by each new impressive, awesome thing he learned about him), Dean was amazed and shocked that he’d actually managed to ask Cas out for drinks, and that Cas had actually agreed.
But now…
“Yeah, probably should have just gone for a jog or something,” Dean said with a grimace, which was followed by a wince of pain.
“You know, it’s only 5:45,” Charlie said hesitantly. “You haven’t actually missed the date yet. You could still–”
“No, no way,” Dean said firmly. “I look ridiculous, and Cas is…he’s not the kind of guy who I want seeing me like this.” Castiel was always so collected and cultured; next to him, Dean felt like a clumsy doof on his best days. “I texted him and told him I was sick. Hopefully, he’ll give me a raincheck. If not…” He frowned, not wanting to think about it.
Charlie made a pained sound, and he pulled her closer. They sat quietly for a little while, ignoring the pizza. Then sounds from outside his door startled Dean out of his black thoughts. Sam was talking to somebody, and they were getting closer.
“…see what I mean,” Sam was saying. “Go on, it’s fine.” And before Dean could protest, his door was opening, and Sam was standing in the doorway, with Castiel beside him. Cas was holding a pharmacy bag, looking baffled. When his eyes fell on Dean, his eyes widened.
“Sam,” Dean groaned. Too late, Cas was crossing the floor, dropping the bag as he moved. He caught Dean’s face in his hands, tilting it from side to side.
“Yell at me later, Dean,” Sam said. “I told you to go to the ER, and you wouldn’t. You had a date planned with an actual ENT doctor anyway, and when he showed up, I wasn’t going to look a gift horse in the mouth.”
“I’m fine, Cas,” Dean said, wincing as fingers prodded at the bruises. This was a nightmare. Charlie had crawled off the bed and was watching with mouth slightly open in surprise.
“You work in hematology, Dean. If you had a blood disorder, I’d yield to your expertise. This is mine.” Appearing satisfied for the moment, Cas let his hands slip from Dean’s cheekbones around to the sides of his face. “But I’d say that in this case, you’re probably correct. I would probably skip the pizza, however.”
“It’s an apology pizza,” Charlie mumbled. Cas turned to her, raising a brow inquisitively. “I hit him in the face with a sword.”
Cas barked a shocked laugh. “What kind?”
“Boffer longsword.”
Cas chuckled. “I didn’t know you did live-action role play, Dean. It’s been ages, but I think I still have my monk garb somewhere in the basement. Though I believe this is better treated with an ice pack than leeches.”
Dean had no idea how it happened, but somehow, he found himself wedged between his best friend and his crush, listening to them discuss costumes, battles, and festivals…and it was perfect.
Except for the awesome-smelling pizza, which he was too sore to eat. But it would keep. He snuggled into his pillow and did his best to smile.
Tag: other peoples fanfic
just one more fix
another coda for 12.23
i’m sorry i can’t stop myselfDean’s a fucking mess.
He goes through the motions of being okay, but he’s empty inside. It’s a familiar feeling, one he’s already experienced back when Cas disappeared into that fucking lake, only it’s ten times worse this time. Last time he thought he loved Cas. This time he knows it. He knows he’s in love with his best friend and never did a fucking thing about it.
So yeah, it’s worse.
Alcohol doesn’t work. He knows it’s a bad idea so he doesn’t try it, knows he’ll just drink and drink and not stop this time, so he avoids it altogether. The idea of sex makes him want to cry, so that’s out.
The only coping mechanism he has left is hunting.
He’s not in a place to do research or “big picture” stuff like helping with Jack or trying to get Mary back. Sam points him in a direction and says “kill this werewolf” or “clear out this vamp nest” and Dean does it. It’s brutal and messy and physically exhausting and the best he can get right now. It’s the only way he can sleep these days; his body overworked and aching all over, he falls onto a motel bed and is out before his head hits the pillow.
One of these hunts happens to be a djinn. No big deal, really. He knocks the thing out and is about to kill it when he gets an idea. A really fucking stupid idea, but an idea.
Cas at that little cottage by the lake. Their cottage by the lake. He’s making lunch – ham and cheese sandwiches with a side of potato salad – and humming some Led Zeppelin under his breath. Dean stands in the doorway, breathless. He knows, of course he knows, but Cas is right in front of him, alive, and he’ll take it. Fuck yes he’ll take it-
Dean gasps as he jolts awake, the djinn’s venom wearing off. It’d been such a small amount, it’d barely lasted an hour.
He drains that djinn try, kills it, then hunts down every djinn he can find to get more. Visits occult shops and hunter stores and buys all the djinn venom he can get his hands on. Every night, he injects just enough to last ‘til morning. Every night, he dreams of blue eyes and dark hair and lips he finally gets to kiss…
“I love you,” Dean whispers between kisses. “Holy fuck do I love you.”
“I know, Dean. I love you too.”
“Never got to tell you… Fuck, you died and you never even knew-”
“Shhhh. It’s okay, Dean. I’m here. I know.”
Waking up hurts (god does it hurt, it’s like losing Cas all over again), but it makes the rest of his life almost tolerable. It gives Dean a purpose, a goal that he mets with deadly precision, and the momentary peace of getting to be with Cas again.
“Dean?”
“Cas?” Dean groggily looks around the dark room. Cas’ side of the bed is empty, so he holds open the covers for him. “C’mere.”
Cas hestitates but approaches the bed. “Dean…”
He doesn’t wait to hear more, just pulls Cas into the bed and wraps himself around him. “Shh, baby. Go to sleep.”
“Dean- I- This can’t wait-”
“Yeah it can.” Dean yawns and rests his head on Cas’ chest. The idiot didn’t even take his clothes off. “I’m tired. Good night, babe. Love you.”
“… I love you too, Dean.”
When Dean wakes up and sees two blue eyes staring at him, he freezes. Shit shit shit shit how much venom did he take last night? Should’ve worn off by now. How’s he going to wake up? He hasn’t even told Sam where he is, no one’s going to come for him-
“Just breathe, Dean.”
He stiffens as Cas puts a hand on his shoulder, but then melts into the touch. He can’t fucking help it. “Cas,” he croaks. “I fucked up.”
“What do you mean?”
“I took too much djinn venom and now I can’t wake up. I was so fucking careful-”
“Is that what you think this is? A djinn dream?”
“Well either that or I died and went to Heaven, but I’m not sure those dicks have left a spot open for me.”
“… I’m in your djinn dream?”
“That’s a joke, right? You are my djinn dream. What the fuck is even the point if I can’t see you? This is all that’s left-”
Cas surges forward and kisses him, cradling Dean’s jaw like he’s precious. Dream Cas never does that. With dream Cas it’s the other way around. And this kiss is too sweet, too desperate, too real–
“Cas?” Dean doesn’t dare hope. This is a dream after all, isn’t it?
“Chuck brought me back. I came looking for you as soon as I could. You weren’t at the bunker. Took me a while to pinpoint your… your longing.”
Dean rests his forehead on Cas’ shoulders and squeezes his eyes shut. Tears threaten to spill and if they start, Dean suspects it’d be a while before they stop. “This isn’t the djinn dream, is it? Because I can’t afford to start believing this is real and have it taken away. If that happened…”
Strong arms close around him. “It’s real, Dean. I’m here.”
Despite his best efforts, Dean starts crying. Cas doesn’t mind.

As promised just about 17 hours ago on my A03 post: an animated WIP of one of the pieces I made for the @destielreversebang : Emerging Wings.
Please check out the rest of the art (Here on A03) as well and let me know what you think 😀 (Also, I might be adding more art to this eventually. I got an idea. TODAY. of course i did, right?)
I’m particularly proud of this piece. This scene is in the very first chapter @formidablepassion wrote and I had 4 ideas off this scene – the first frame is the first one i drew out and while i love the expression on Cas’s face, it wasn’t what i was looking for.
the second one I attempted was the one i went with as you can clearly see! It was also the one I thought I would NOT be able to do (but was the one I REALLY wanted to draw, which is why I tried it anyway. I did not regret it).
So you see it progress from pencils on scrap paper, to ballpoint pen with some minor changes, then to pencil again on GOOD paper and me starting to fill in the inks (micron pens and sharpie). Then it’s scanned, threshed and colored on Photoshop 😀
300 Words or Less – Collection #6
I can’t believe how busy I’ve been lately- I’m overdue for a compilation post of the prompt fics!
- 30 – DCJ – Epilepsy
- 31 – DCJ – Assault Part 1
- 32 – DCJ – Assault Part 2
Previous Collections:
- 1-6 SPN Edition
- 7-11 DCJ Edition
- 12-14 – Another SPN Edition
- 15-18 The Next DCJ Edition
- 19-26 Collection #5
Original Prompt Post: 300 Words or Less
Go ahead and continue to send more prompts (Supenatural, Star Trek, Doctor Who…) with whichever ships (I may only ‘see’ a few of them, but I’m usually open to others. I can’t think of any i wouldn’t do – if that happens i’ll let you know) or no ships at all! Angsty, fluffy – let it be known!
There may be a slight delay today since I plan on doing artwork for some bangs, but feel free to send them on in 😀
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#45 with DCJ or Destiel
Okay here is attempt #2 of DCJ lol Hope you like it!
The Novak twins had always been close. Many, including their family, attributed this to them being identical twins. They were constantly together and the mere thought of separating little Jimmy and Castiel was impossible.
Mrs. Novak and the other ladies at church, would coo when they would witness things such as Jimmy holding Castiel’s hand in comfort or support. They would send praises to heaven at how ‘God’s loves’ shined in these two brothers when they would embrace each other.
There was much more to it than what other saw, when it came to the Novak twins.