Tag: mental illness

You know what I hate about my brain? The constant drain circling I get myself into. 

Like, I’ll think of a thing I want, then I’ll doubt it, then I’ll try to figure out what I want to/should do, then I’ll tell myself no, then I’ll argue with myself, then I’ll berate myself for arguing, then I try to calm down, try to justify and reason with myself, then I get confused and start all over again. It’s exhausting. And it makes me want to tear my hair out (which I’m not supposed to do anymore) or hit myself (also on the list of things I’m not allowed to do anymore). 

It’s really frustrating and I don’t like it. But I’m trying to work on it so I don’t have to keep doing it all the time. But it sucks to have to fight yourself. 

You know what’s fucked up? When you’ve been doubted, argued with, and discounted so often you’re scared to talk to your doctor about what’s going on in your own mind because you’re convinced they’re not going to believe you. 

cptsdwillgraham:

beebunny:

here’s an idea: notice toxic trends in your behavior and, idk, change them

the fact that people are complaining on this post that they can’t change their behaviors that hurt others because they have x mental illness and We Can’t All Be Neurotypical Karen is absolutely fucking wild. do you realize your arguments have come full circle to being indistinguishable from the most crude, generic “mentally ill people are inherently dangerous and/or abusive” ableist rhetoric? you always have the agency to address the ways in which you are hurting others (or yourself). maybe not instantly. maybe not effortlessly. but it IS within your abilities and it is something you owe to your community and yourself