Odes to College Love

SPN Rare Ship CC: Round 8 | rosemoonweaver vs. @jelly-beans-and-gstrings
Prompt: Alien Armpit
Ship: Sam/Brady
Word Count: 549
Tags/Warnings: poetry, bad poetry (intentionally), first love, college, canon vesrse, pre-canon, sad ending, mild sexual content
Summary: A series to poems from Sam and Brady. 
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Dearest Sam,

My majestic moose

You’re truly a gift to this world.

Your eyes are like bottled sunshine

Lighting up every dark corner of my world.

There has never been a person more kind or beautiful,

And I am enraptured.

  Brady

You wore the cornflower tie I first saw you in the other day.              

I never thought I’d wind up thinking cornflower, of all things, attractive,

but there is it and there you are

and I find myself wanting to thread it through my fingers and pull you close

to feel your stubble against my cheeks

your thin lips against my own

to see the twinkle in your eyes up close –

and fall in love all over again.

  Sam

I feel in love in a comic shop

I remember it vividly,

The scent of plastic and ink,

The slick laminate floor beneath my feet,

The bright green walls all around – the color of an alien’s armpit –

And I should have known I’d find someone so out of this world there.

You fought me on the merits of Black Canary vs. Black Widow

I wanted to take you out back

And kiss you breathless

You were so passionate about it.

I fall in love with you every time you tell me how wrong I am.

  Brady

I saw you crying the other day. You didn’t see me, but I was there.

I wonder what could be so bad,

to make someone so beautiful so sad.

I wish I could take it all away.

If I had the power, I’d erase anything that would dare make your smile fade

I’d chase away all the darkness from your life,

and I’d bottle your laughter for my own rainy days.

It would be worth it, to take your suffering on as my own

If only I could hold you in my arms for the rest of my life.

  Sam

I used to wonder if people were destined to be together

Now I’m fairly sure I know.

Your hands fit perfectly with mine,

Like we were made to fit together.

Your lips against mine, the way we grind together,

It’s like magic,

Two parts of the same whole,

Fitting together in perfect unity.

It’s breathtaking.

  Brady

I love you.

They’re words I never knew I could feel on my own lips

much less directed at someone I’m not related to.

They’re like candy, sweet, and addictive, full of a rush I never knew I could have.

I sometimes wonder what my father would say – if he would care at all –

but I know I don’t care.

You’re precious to me – a diamond in the coal mine of my life

and I’m never letting you go.

I love you now.

I’ll love you forever.

  Sam

Brady,

It’s been years since we last wrote to each other.

I wonder what happened – what made you change –

but I have to accept that you are not the same person you once were.

The bright-eyed boy I fell in love with is dead

and some stranger walks around in his skin.

I fell in love again.

I don’t know if you care. If you ever did.

I hope so.

I loved you then.

I love you now.

It’s just different.

I hope you’re well, wherever you are.

  Sam Winchester


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Nightmares and Teddy Bears

SPN Rare Ship CC: Round 8 | rosemoonweaver vs. @lux-tuli
Prompt: Fuzzy Wuzzy
Ship: Anna/Ruby
Word Count: 1,517
Tags/Warnings: domestic, kid fic, schizophrenia, mental illness, slice of life, adoption, nightmares, anna and ruby are moms, AU – human
Summary: Jesse had a bad dream. Unfortunately, that’s common these days, and Anna starts to worry.
A/N: Apparently, color prompts are not my strong suit. The “color” is the teddy bear, Mr. Fuzzy. 
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Anna awoke with the vague, eerie feeling that she was being watched. She held her breath for a moment, talking in the darkness around her before shifting away from her wife and rolling her head towards the door. The hall light was still out, but there was a vague shape at the side of the bed and a tiny whimper.

Anna rolled over, flailing at the lamp on her bedside table until she was finally able to turn the light on. There, standing next to the dresser was Jesse, teddy bear clutched tight to his chest, tear stains on his cheeks.

“Oh, baby,” Anna breathed, flipping the blanket off and sitting up in bed. Beside her, Ruby grumbled awake.

“What happened? Why are you crying?” Anna asked, thumbing the tears away from his chubby little cheeks.  

“Bad dream,” he whimpered, chin tucked close to his chest.

Anna wrapped him in her arms, holding him close to her chest and rocking back and forth. “Oh, honey. I’m sorry.”

“What’s going on?” Ruby asked, flipping on her own light and scooting into Anna’s space.

“Jesse had a bad dream.”

Ruby reached over her shoulder, stroking Jesse’s soft hair. The two locked eyes for a brief moment. Jesse had been having nightmares more and more often and it was starting to worry both Anna and Ruby. The adoption had only been final for about six months, and the nightmare had started at around the same time. Ruby had worried that the two might have something to do with each other, and as they kept getting worse, Anna was starting to worry the same thing. She’d thought, at first, that he might be the same way that she was as a child, experiencing night terrors and horrible vivid dreams for years before her first psychotic episode as a young adult. The thought had worried her much more than the nightmares being a result of adoption stress. Now though, she wasn’t sure which of the issues she would prefer them to be. Psychosis, as well as Anna,  had managed it so far, was not fun in the slightest, but it broke her heart that the reason he was stressed might be her fault in some way.

Jesse’s therapist still hadn’t come to a decision yet. She’d said that he was a fairly happy, pleasant kid, and the nightmare were unpleasant, but she wasn’t willing to rule out stress just yet. After all, the kid had just been adopted, had a birthday, and started a new grade all in the span of a few months. That had to be enough to stress any kid out.

“You wanna sleep with mom and me?” Ruby asked.

Jesse nodded against Anna’s chest. “Mr. Fuzzy, too,” he mumbled.

“Of course. Can’t leave Mr. Fuzzy out,” Ruby said, stroking the hair on the back of his neck.

She scooted back on her side of the bed, pulling the blanket down and flicking off her bedside light. Anna pulled Jesse into her lap, not an easy feat considering he was nearly sixty pounds of sleepy, dead weight, and scooted back on the bed. Jesse climbed off her lap and shimmied onto the bed, resting his head on Ruby’s pillow. He looked up at the two of them, eyes still wet but no longer whimpering, and curled into Ruby as she lay down.

“You okay there, kiddo?”

Jesse nodded.

Anna frowned, curling around her son and stroking his back. “I love you little bug,” she said.

“Love you too, mommas.”

It didn’t take long for him to fall asleep. Ruby followed soon after, and Anna didn’t get a chance to talk to her before she did. Anna lay awake for most of the night, falling into a light and fitful sleep when she actually slept.

~~~

The next morning was a weekend, so at least Anna and Ruby could sleep in a little before they had to get up and to things. Or, that was the plan at least. Jesse was determined to get up and play not later than nine in the morning, so Ruby graciously volunteered to feed him and toss a ball around with him while Anna got a little more sleep. She finally crawled out of bed a little after ten in the morning and dragged herself into the kitchen for a cup of coffee. She was halfway through her first cup when Ruby came back in through the back door, her face red already.

“He’s really making you work for it today, isn’t he?” Anna asked.

Ruby laughed, pulling two water bottles out of the fridge. “He’s getting fast.”

“How’s he doing today?”

Ruby leaned back against the fridge door, screwing the cap off the water bottle and chugging half of it. “Same as he usually is.”

Anna nodded, staring out the window. Jesse was kicking a soccer ball around in the grass, kicking it too far ahead of him and racing to get it before whatever imaginary players he was pretending to play against got it first. He kicked the ball at the fence and jumped up and down, pumping his fists in the air.

“I’m worried about him,” Anna said.

Ruby slid up beside her, wrapping an arm around her waist. She set her chin on Anna’s shoulder and sighed. “Yeah, I know.”

“What if it’s our fault,” Anna said.

Ruby frowned, and Anna could see her rolling her eyes out of the corners of her own.

“Babe, we’ve been through this. Whatever’s up with Jesse isn’t because of us.”

“But if it’s stress it’s gotta be us right?”

“If it is he’d be having these issues regardless of who winded up adopting him.”

Anna sighed. “Yeah, I guess that’s true.” She swirled her lukewarm coffee around in the cup.

“You’re worried it isn’t just stress, aren’t you?”

“It’s too early to tell if it’s anything more serious,” Anna said, draining the last of her cup.

“And that bothers you.”

“You know it does.”

Ruby sighed, squeezing Anna tighter around the middle. “If it is there’s not a lot we can do about it until something more happens.”

“I know,” Anna groaned. “I just wish we could do something now. I don’t like it that he’s having trouble like this. If it’s just stress and it’s only nightmares and night terror, why can’t they give him something to help him sleep?”

Ruby stroked up and down Anna’s arms, swaying back and forth softly. “I don’t know babe.”

“And if it’s more than that you’d think they’d know.”

Ruby hummed again. “You’d think.”

“I’m just worried, Ruby. I don’t want him to have to live his life needing medication. I know it helps and if he has to have it I want him to have it, don’t get me wrong, I just – I don’t want him to have to need it.”

“Yeah, but, at least he has you to help him through it if it is something more serious.”

Anna rolled her eyes. “I could barely manage myself for years. I’m not exactly a role model for managing mental illness.”

“Maybe not, but at least you understand it. If it was me before I met you, geez, I dunno. I don’t think I would’ve even known what to do about it. I’d probably say and do all the wrong things. At least you know what he’s going through. That’s gotta count for something, right?”

“Maybe.”

“And yeah, it took you a while to get a handle on it, but you’ve got it pretty much under control now.”

“After thirty years.”

“Better than sixty.”

Anna sighed again, setting her coffee cup down on the counter and turning in Ruby’s arms. “I guess.”

“Think of it this way, if it is something serious, like some kind of sign of psychosis later you have a better understanding of that then most people do. If it’s just stress it will go away and we’ll look back on this and give Jesse shit about it when he has his own kids who keep him up at night. But if it’s more than that, well, maybe there’s a reason you’re his mom.”

Anna huffed a chuckle. “Fate? Really, Ruby?”

Ruby shrugged. “I dunno. Could be. I don’t know all the secrets of the universe.”

Anna shook her head and kissed her wife on the forehead.

“I just know,” Ruby said, “that if anyone is cut out to be the best mom for Jesse, it’s you.”

“I dunno, I’d say there’s definitely one other person who might be up there, too.”

Ruby rolled her eyes and smiled. “Yeah, well, someone’s gotta teach the kid to kick a ball.”

They pulled away and Ruby chugged the rest of her water before tossing the empty bottle in the trash and swiping the still unopened bottle off the counter. “Speaking of which,” she pointed towards the back door.

Anna watched her go, smiling as she watched her wife and child play. Hopefully, the nightmares would fade over time, but if they didn’t, well, she and Ruby would be there for their son, no matter what.


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Lipstick and Love Notes

SPN Rare Ship CC: Round 8 | rosemoonweaver vs. @mariaghost
Prompt: Jelly Bean
Ship: Meg/Abaddon
Word Count: 1,610
Tags/Warnings: AU – human, 1920′s (ish?), burlesque dancers, burlesque dancer!Abaddon, nudity, mild sexual content, open relationships, love notes (more like lust notes honestly), lipstick kink (if that’s a thing)
A/N: The prompt is the color of Meg’s lipstick. I didn’t name it, but the color can be found over here
Summary: There’s a note on Abaddon’s vanity. 
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There was a note on her vanity.

Abaddon was no stranger to love notes. She got them at least three times a week. So many lonely men would try to sneak her letters, whether they slid them to the server girls or tried to sneak backstage to leave them for her to find, or even slipped them into her bodice when she walked the floor, but very few of them actually succeeded in catching her attention. Most of the time she checked the names at the bottom first. If it was someone important, a senator or a businessman, or a bootlegger, she’d respond with a little light flirting. If it was a name she didn’t recognize, it went in the trash. Most of them were the same. They’d compare her to the moon, to the sun, drown in the dark pools of her eyes, and beg to lose themselves in her legs. Most of them were written on the same kind of paper, too, all place white and black in. There was so little imagination to any of them.

This one, however, was different. For one, it was on her vanity. No man had ever managed to get backstage unless of course they were invited, and Abaddon hadn’t invited anyone back in at least a week. None of the other girls had, either, to her knowledge. This note was also in an actual envelope sealed with wax.

Abaddon pulled her silk robe tighter around her shoulders, popping the wax off the envelope with her nail. The note had been written on light pink paper.

Temptress:

I’m not one for poetry, but you’ve spurred me to put ink to paper.

You’re wicked, igniting me to my core, burning me from the inside out, and I can’t be bothered to care.

The way you bat your eyes, the way you flaunt your soft curves; I just can’t help myself.

I haven’t known the touch of a woman in years and yet – you make me ache.

I have to wonder if you’re soft all the time or if you bite and rake your nails down the backs of those fortunate to lie with you.

I wonder, do your thighs tremble when you’re breathless in pleasure like mine do when I dare to pretend the one touching me is you?

It was signed with a single letter, an M in hasty, jagged script.

Abaddon blinked a few times before folding the note back up and slipping it back into its envelope. It was certainly one of the more explicit notes she’d ever gotten. Not that she minded, though. She’d take explicit over the flowery notes any day of the week. The M was new, though. She thought back to the men she knew who frequented the club, even the ones that usually paid attention to the other girls. She drew a blank but resolved to take the note home with her.

~~~~

I saw your fan dance.

It’s funny, that you’re up on stage flutter those glittery fans, your breasts peeking from behind those feathery curtains like you’re some kind of angel but I know better.

You’re wicked; some kind of demon sent to drag me to hell.

I would go willingly because even the fires of damnation couldn’t scorch me the way your gaze does.

Even Hell might be some kind of Heaven if I got the chance to taste the sweat on your skin or the nectar between your thighs.

–    M

It was the second note Abaddon had gotten in less than a week. Apparently, this M was a new admirer of hers, but she hadn’t seen anyone new in the crowd the past few nights. Perhaps it was a shy man who’d only now got the courage to leave her messages. That was fine, too, but she wished she knew who it was. If it was someone who’d bribed their way back here it was fine, but it was someone who’d snuck back that could be dangerous. She decided she’d wait a week to tell the manager, Alistair. If he thought it was something to worry about, then she’d keep an eye out, but as the notes were only lustful and didn’t demand any kind of meeting yet, she didn’t figure it would be an issue.

She slipped the note into her purse and decided to take it back home and keep it with the other one.

~~~~

Alistair had placed an additional bouncer at the entrance to the dressing rooms, so whoever left the note by Abaddon’s flower vase must have been paying. This was the fourth note in as many weeks, written on the same paper, signed with the same initial. She’d have to ask the bouncer who he’d let pass because she was starting to get curious about this mysterious admirer of hers.

I wonder if you’ve been keeping these notes. You must get so many day-to-day that it isn’t even of consequence to you. I might be as easily overlooked here as I am among the crowd. But you’re not. You could never be. How no one has snatched you up and away from this world, from my eyes, is a wonder to me.

Perhaps you aren’t interested in their affections? Perhaps they could never please you the way you’d want? I wonder if you’ve ever know the touch of a woman?

–    M

Abaddon smiled, reading the note over again. So, this mystery man wasn’t actually a man at all. This could be interesting. She hadn’t taken a female lover in quite some time, but she wasn’t opposed.

Abaddon tucked her admirer’s note into her purse and set out to write her own note, asking her admirer to meet sometime within the next week. She slipped the note under the flower vase and hoped for the best. It stayed there for there more days and then it was gone.

~~~~

Abaddon hadn’t gotten another note in a week and a half. It was a little disappointing if she were honest. It was intriguing to have another woman interested in her instead of yet another man. Perhaps her offer to meet had scared her admirer off. Some women liked to entertain the thought of a female lover but were too afraid to make the leap. It was alright, though, Abaddon had been there herself, once upon a time. She did hope it would change for her admirer, though. It would be a shame if she didn’t allow herself to explore because she was afraid.

There was a soft knock at Abaddon’s dressing room door. Her set was over, so it was probably just one of the girls.

“Come in,” she called, watching the door through the mirror. It swung open, and Abaddon locked eyes with a woman she’d never seen before through the mirror. “Can I help you?” She asked.

“You requested a meeting,” the woman said.

“Did I?”

“Your note was addressed to me, I believe.”

Abaddon swung around on her stool, crossing her ankles and leaning her legs to the side, letting her knee fall out of the open slit of her robe. “You must be M, then.”

“Meg. Masters. But you can call me Meg.”

“The bootlegger’s wife?”

“He knows I’m here,” Meg said, slipping into the room and shutting the door behind her. She was wearing a fur around her shoulders, but other than that her outfit attracted no attention. She wasn’t even wearing make-up aside from the nude pink lipstick on her lips.

“If he wanted to proposition me he could have done it himself.”

“Oh, believe me, he would have.” Meg was now standing less than a foot away and Abaddon allowed her gaze to fall down Meg’s form. The dress she wore didn’t hint at any of the curves of her body. “I’m here on my own account.”

“Oh?”

Meg hummed, stepping into Abaddon’s space. “I was wondering if you’d accompany me for the evening. My husband has business to attend to, so I’ll be alone the whole night.”

Abaddon smirked. Meg’s perfume wafted off her skin. It was a soft, spicy scent like cloves and sugar. “I don’t usually keep housewives company.”

Meg laughed. “I’m not looking for a lot more than company.”

“You’re looking for… what exactly?” Abaddon asked. She knew good and well what Meg was interested in but she wanted to hear her say it. She wasn’t one to be propositioned in vague terms.

“Sex,” Meg said, slipping her hand up Abaddon’s knee, stopping midway up her thigh.

“Is it going to be worth my while?” Abaddon asked.

Meg smirked, her eyes lingering at the top of Abaddon’s robe and the hint of cleavage there. “Definitely.”

~~~~

It had been three weeks since Meg took her back to the home she shared with her husband; three weeks since they writhed together on Meg’s silk sheets hands tugging in hair and tongues laving against skin. It had been some of the best sex Abaddon had had in a long time. It had been a shame it had come to an end so soon.

There was a note on Abaddon’s vanity. She smiled to herself, pulling it out of its envelope.

I’d love to see you again.

I’ll be around after midnight if you’ll wait for me.

–    Meg

PS. There’s a tube of my lipstick on the vanity. It looked so good smeared across your neck last time. I think it’d look lovely smeared across my thighs.

Abaddon chuckled to herself, finding the golden tube of lipstick in front of her mirror. She wiped off her own dark red lipstick and pulled off the cap, applying the nude pink color to her lips.


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Some Things Last

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Title: Some Things Last

Author: @jamesnovakwinchester – [ao3]

Artist: @dragonpressgraphics – [ao3]

Fic Link: [Ao3]

Art Link: [Ao3]

Rating: Explicit

Archive Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Major Tags: underage sex mentioned but not shown, Alternate Universe – No Supernatural, Multiple POVs, Angst, Lovers to Enemies, Enemies to Lovers, Homophobia, Bisexual Erasure, Biphobia,Chuck is a Dick, (and a bad dad), Childhood Trauma, Childhood Abuse, Minor Character Death, Past Character Death, First Meetings, Slow Burn, Love Triangle, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Cas and Jimmy are Twins, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Self-Destructive Thoughts, Self-Esteem Issues, Anxiety Disorders, Panic Attacks, Break-ups, Pining, Mutual Unrequited Pining, Love Confessions, Drunken Mistakes, Alcohol, Polyamory Negotiations, Explicit Sexual Content, Switch Dean, Switch Jimmy, Switch Cas, Threesome – M/M/M, Incest, Twincest, Sibling Incest,

Pairings: Castiel/Jimmy, Jimmy/Amelia, Jimmy/Dean, Castiel/Dean. Castiel/Jimmy/Dean, Dean/Lisa (past) Sam/Eileen (side), Michael/Hael (side), Balthazar/Meg (side), Chuck/Naomi (past),

Summary:

Jimmy Novak had nearly everything he’d ever wanted; a decent job, a beautiful daughter, and a boyfriend he adored. But his father’s sudden death threatens to destroy the things he holds most dear when he’s forced to come face-to-face with his past and the one person he never wanted to have to face again: his brother.

Castiel Novak had been managing life just fine. It hadn’t been going the way he’d expected, but still, things were fine. That was of course until his father died and he was back in the same room as his twin brother, Jimmy, and all that managing was a little harder to do. Between his brother, his memories, and his brother’s gorgeous new boyfriend, Castiel was fairly certain it’s only a matter of time before something snaps.

Dean Winchester thought he’d had things relatively figured out. He was in love and more than ready to take the next step with his boyfriend, until he found out about that twin brother his boyfriend had never mentioned. There’s some kind of damage between the two of them, shaking Jimmy up and messing with his head. Dean is determined to find out what and hopefully fix it. Now all he has to do is figure it out and not fall for Cas or lose Jimmy in the process.

Teaser:

“No, seriously,” Dean said, “this woman straight up watches me plant one on him and then proceeds to laugh about how she wishes more men were as open with their affection for their friends as we were.”

Castiel snorted.

“I suggested that we – ow!” Dean jumped, glaring at Jimmy across the table.

“Little ears,” Jimmy said, tipping his head towards Claire, who was pushing her rice into a single pile.

“Oh, right.”

Claire giggled, squirming in her seat. She seemed content to just sit there and play with her rice, popping a piece of chicken into her mouth every once in a while.

“So, you got a boyfriend, Cas?” Dean asked.

“No.”

“Don’t get out much?” Dean asked.

Castiel shrugged. “More than I used to, I suppose. I just haven’t had an interest in long-term dating, not since college.” That was probably the wrong thing to say, but it just kind of slipped out.

Jimmy squirmed in his seat, clearing his throat and pointedly ignoring Castiel’s gaze.

“Why not? Can’t imagine you haven’t gotten any offers.” Dean said.

“There have been offers. I just haven’t been interested.”

“Oh,” Dean said, “it’s one of those then.”

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Under the Surface (Destiel)

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A Destiel pirate/fantasy AU. 

Summary: Dean, prince of Winchester, had pretty much everything he could have ever wanted, except for a choice in his fate. That was until he found himself kidnapped and held for ransom by a band of pirates and their enigmatic captain, Castiel. Now, he must choose for himself whether or not he will allow himself to be free to do what he wants or to do what everyone seems to think he should.

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence, Kidnapping, Minor Character Death, Major Character Injury, Violence, Angst, Historically Inaccurate Dialogue, Mild Sexual Content 

Snippet: 

The captain swung his head back slowly, dragging his eyes up and down Dean’s body before settling back to his face. Dean gulped reflexively. The man set a single, slender finger on his lip and hummed to himself. “And the other three?”
“They were on the boat with him,” Marv said.
The captain took a step back and moved to stand in front of Garth. Dean let out a breath he didn’t know he had been holding.
“You,” the captain said, addressing Garth, “will be taken back to your vessel. Once there you will head back to the castle and tell the king we have his son. You will tell the king that if he ever wishes to see his child again he will send a single ship to the cove at the northernmost isle at his borders two weeks from now. This ship will contain 10,000 gold pieces, 5,000 silver pieces, and ten barrels of whiskey. If your king attempts to send his navy he will never see his son alive again. If he complies, your prince will be returned, safe and sound. Is that understood?”
Garth nodded.
“But sir,” Marv interjected, “he’s got to be worth more than that!”
The captain swung past Garth, towering over Marv, his shoulders arched high. “Did I ask for your opinion?”
“N-no, but sir…”
“Then hold your tongue,” the captain all but snarled, turning away.
“But Castiel…”
The captain, Castiel, swung around, a blade suddenly in his hand and pressed against Marv’s neck. “I told you to hold your tongue.”
Marv went still, sucking his bottom lip into his mouth. Dean shuddered.

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