*hugs* I’m sorry that happened. It’s hard to be positive and someone ruining it always sucks, especially when it was something that’s harmless or could be easily fixed
*hugs* thanks. It’s so frustrating. I just need to try not to let it get to me but it’s very irritating.
Zuko is amazing. He’s one of my favorite characters and I love the show even more now that I can analyze it.
I hate love triangles too. I only like them if they end in polyamory or if person B and C forget about person A and leave them behind and get together. What’s your thoughts on that?
I can definitely see the lack of appeal for coffee shop AUs. They aren’t my thing either
Oh, yeah. I think the show just gets better the older you get b/c now you can actually look at it and see how it works and why it works! I think that’s a lot of fun.
I feel like a love triangle where persons B and C get together could be fun a couple of times (esp if person A was being a jerk the whole time) but I still kinda prefer polyamory. lol. BUT it’s a fun twist!
K – What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?
Of all time? Prince Zuko in Avatar: The Last Air Bender. It was as close to perfect as I think a redemption story can get. The whole series is a masterpiece of storytelling so it shouldn’t be a surprise.
In Star Wars? Luke Skywalker. I realize that’s probably an unpopular opinion, but I really love the rebirth of the character in TLJ. I just can’t really relate to characters who don’t fuck up and he does and then comes out better for it.
In Supernatural? Meg. I love how she went from antagonist to ally and ultimately died to save everyone else. It just makes me sad that even in death she wasn’t really accepted by others.
…there’s a pattern here lol.
W – A trope which you are virtually certain to hate in any fandom.
Do AUs count? Because I hate coffee shop AUs and I will always hate them no matter what.
Outside of that I’m really not a fan of love triangles. I can’t stand those.
Thanks!
general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life
hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang
hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff
best quality: He’s super nice but he’ll call you out on your shit when need be.
worst quality: He’s a little clingy if you ask me.
ship them with: Top Three: 1) Dean 2) Donna (come on, they’d be so fucking cute together) 3) Sam
brotp them with: Castiel, All of the Wayward Crew
needs to stay away from: Anyone who could hurt him.
misc. thoughts: I really love Garth, actually. He’s a good bean and I don’t want anything bad to happen to him. Also, I think he’s cute in his own way. He’s not super attractive imo, but he’s cute in a way.
Thanks!
College AU.
Dean, Cas, Sam, Charlie, Jo, and Benny are all hanging out in the dorms drinking their prohibited PBR when they decide to play a little game of “never have I ever”. It starts with your usual, “never have I ever had sex with an ex after a break-up” “never have I ever gotten so drunk I passed out” “never have I ever been skinny dipping” and then it gets… odd.
Enter a series of strange things that no one should have ever really done but some of them have anyway. (And yes, there will be references to tentacles.)
Yes exactly. And for some reason it also splits a bit for me? I have written serial killer!Dean. His relationship with Cas is not by any means healthy. It’s manipulative and coercive. But I make it clear from the beginning that Dean doesn’t know better and can’t fully grasp that what he’s doing is wrong and he’s mentally ill. Of course that’s no excuse. It’s still a terribly unhealthy relationship especially when he stalks Cas. For some reason that for me is fine?
I wonder if it’s almost a context thing? Because like, Angel Lust is set in a ‘verse where Jimmy and Sam are both serial killers and they don’t really have any issue with actually murdering people. No one in that ‘verse is exactly stable, but I think b/c I’m writing it with the intent to shock, horrify, disgust, and explore these darker things that I’m able to do it. Is it like that with you? Like you mentioned serial killer!Dean and those kinds of AUs usually have certain reader expectations and conventions, so does that change the ability to write it?
I only wonder b/c if I were to try to present abuse in an AU that turned out happy I don’t think I could.Ah that makes perfect sense! With dark!fic, going in you know there won’t be a happy or even somewhat functional ending and what is a happy ending is still miserable. In my fic, it boils down to a few options and the best is that Cas leaves Dean, gets to safety, recovers, and Dean ends up in prison. They’re both hurt and have their lives destroyed.
I also think that not trying to validate it and trying to make it sympathetic in a dismissive way plays a part too. If the other person’s trauma is dismissed or the behavior is excused, that makes me squick away from it
Oh totally! If you’re reading dark!fic you should probably be aware that it’s not really going to be “happy”. And even “happy” endings are pretty twisted most of the time. (I actually don’t mind a twisted ending if it’s pulled off well. I read a fic a while back where one character was a siren and essentially forced the other into captivity by speaking. It left me with a sinking feeling in my gut and I really enjoyed that because it was horrifying It wasn’t supposed to be a “good” ending and I loved it.) But yeah, even the best option for your fic is devastating.
Also, I agree with you on the invalidation and excuse part. There’s a huge difference between an explanation for behavior and an excuse for behavior. Explanations can make a reader sympathetic towards a character, but it doesn’t make their actions okay. I would like to think most folks understand that, but I’m not sure. And I generally just don’t like when the trauma of one character is brushed off by another.
That sounds like a fic I would enjoy. I love that dark twisting feeling in your gut that would cause. Probably why I love dark!fic and horror so much *lol*. I remember reading a wincestiel fic where the boys were serial killers and killed Jimmy, kidnapped Cas, and they all died. For that story, it fit. There was no one way out other than things getting worse and worse until it suddenly came to a complete halt.
I always wonder about that too. Am I making a character too sympathetic? Can people tell what I’m trying to do with the direction I’m taking it? And especially with what I’m doing with Dean, can the reader pick up he’s slipping and he’s going to start to spiral soon?
lol. I used to watch a buttload of Tales from the Crypt, Twilight Zone, and Tales from the Darkside as a kid, so I love those “and then suddenly everything is awful” twists in horror and suspense. I’ll eat them up. Also that wincestiel fic sounds fun. Do you have the link or remember what it was called? I think it’d be fun to read.
Creating villains with some sympathy but not too much is always tricky imo. I’m one of those people who really enjoys sympathetic villains and redemption though, so it’s an issue for me. There are villains I want to see get eaten by sharks or whatever, but I do tend to pull for the bad guys. I guess they just resonate more with me. Sometimes though, I think it’s fun to keep the reader in suspense. One of those “will they or won’t they” kind of things but it’s will they or won’t they get worse. But I don’t really write a lot of characters that ride moral lines. I’m trying to with my Peacemaker ‘verse, but it’s kind of difficult. I do hope your readers are understanding what you’re doing with Dean, though.
Yes exactly. And for some reason it also splits a bit for me? I have written serial killer!Dean. His relationship with Cas is not by any means healthy. It’s manipulative and coercive. But I make it clear from the beginning that Dean doesn’t know better and can’t fully grasp that what he’s doing is wrong and he’s mentally ill. Of course that’s no excuse. It’s still a terribly unhealthy relationship especially when he stalks Cas. For some reason that for me is fine?
I wonder if it’s almost a context thing? Because like, Angel Lust is set in a ‘verse where Jimmy and Sam are both serial killers and they don’t really have any issue with actually murdering people. No one in that ‘verse is exactly stable, but I think b/c I’m writing it with the intent to shock, horrify, disgust, and explore these darker things that I’m able to do it. Is it like that with you? Like you mentioned serial killer!Dean and those kinds of AUs usually have certain reader expectations and conventions, so does that change the ability to write it?
I only wonder b/c if I were to try to present abuse in an AU that turned out happy I don’t think I could.Ah that makes perfect sense! With dark!fic, going in you know there won’t be a happy or even somewhat functional ending and what is a happy ending is still miserable. In my fic, it boils down to a few options and the best is that Cas leaves Dean, gets to safety, recovers, and Dean ends up in prison. They’re both hurt and have their lives destroyed.
I also think that not trying to validate it and trying to make it sympathetic in a dismissive way plays a part too. If the other person’s trauma is dismissed or the behavior is excused, that makes me squick away from it
Oh totally! If you’re reading dark!fic you should probably be aware that it’s not really going to be “happy”. And even “happy” endings are pretty twisted most of the time. (I actually don’t mind a twisted ending if it’s pulled off well. I read a fic a while back where one character was a siren and essentially forced the other into captivity by speaking. It left me with a sinking feeling in my gut and I really enjoyed that because it was horrifying It wasn’t supposed to be a “good” ending and I loved it.) But yeah, even the best option for your fic is devastating.
Also, I agree with you on the invalidation and excuse part. There’s a huge difference between an explanation for behavior and an excuse for behavior. Explanations can make a reader sympathetic towards a character, but it doesn’t make their actions okay. I would like to think most folks understand that, but I’m not sure. And I generally just don’t like when the trauma of one character is brushed off by another.
Yes exactly. And for some reason it also splits a bit for me? I have written serial killer!Dean. His relationship with Cas is not by any means healthy. It’s manipulative and coercive. But I make it clear from the beginning that Dean doesn’t know better and can’t fully grasp that what he’s doing is wrong and he’s mentally ill. Of course that’s no excuse. It’s still a terribly unhealthy relationship especially when he stalks Cas. For some reason that for me is fine?
I wonder if it’s almost a context thing? Because like, Angel Lust is set in a ‘verse where Jimmy and Sam are both serial killers and they don’t really have any issue with actually murdering people. No one in that ‘verse is exactly stable, but I think b/c I’m writing it with the intent to shock, horrify, disgust, and explore these darker things that I’m able to do it. Is it like that with you? Like you mentioned serial killer!Dean and those kinds of AUs usually have certain reader expectations and conventions, so does that change the ability to write it?
I only wonder b/c if I were to try to present abuse in an AU that turned out happy I don’t think I could.
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Even if I don’t understand a word of the other fics, I’ll boost them for you. ^^ Also I think you touched on something I’d probably be uncomfortable reading and writing that I haven’t thought about much before. I probably wouldn’t be able to write something from an abuser’s POV when they’re knowingly abusive and recognize that what they do is wrong especially in the ways they’re trying to validate it
lol. Well, thank you. I probably wont post them on this blog though. I might on some other blog but I’m not even sure I’m going to do that, tbh. But your support means a lot to me!
Yeah, I think writing an abuser who knows they’re being abusive and doesn’t want to or care to stop what they’re doing would be really hard to write. It’d be an interesting thing to do in terms of a psychological perspective but I don’t think I could be the one to read it or write it. It’s too intense.
1) is there a story you’re holding off on writing for some reason?
Oh boy, is there ever. Currently I have like three fics I’d love to write but I have to finish what I’ve already started first. They’re a different fandom, too, so that’s making me a wee bit nervous. Two of them are currently outlined, though, so I’m hoping that satisfies me for a while.
20) do you write in long sit-down sessions or in little spurts?
I try to do both. On days that I’m on fire I can sit down for a few hours and just write. Usually I’ll forget to eat when I do that. Recently I’ve been doing more of the short spurt things which is a little frustrating.
22) are there any subjects that make you uncomfortable to write?
You know, I’m not sure. I’ve never really tried writing some things that I think might make me uncomfortable, like abuse from the pov of the abuser, so I’m not sure.
When I was writing Angel Lust I was a little… I was more surprised at how not uncomfortable I was while writing it. I expected to me more squirmy with my own writing but I just kind of got into a different mindset, you know? It was outside myself, if that makes sense, so I was more shocked that I was able to do it. I don’t know for sure if that’s something I could do with other topics or not, though.
Thanks!
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