I get that I feel like if you did that I’d always be sorta mad at Cas no matter what but the way you wrote it made me mad but understanding of Jimmy I genuinely felt sympathetic towards him and like I don’t think I would have felt as sympathetic for Cas as I do if you did the other thing like I was so happy in the end everyone was in a good place and I loved that

Yeah, that’s how I felt about it. If I made Cas do a revenge thing it would have made him the bad guy and I don’t think there would have been a way to come back from that. At least with how I ended up doing it, everyone had a reason for what they were doing and even though they did some dumb stuff it was understandable. I’m really glad you liked the ending, too. It really made me happy to write.

Some Things Last Self-Promotion (part 2)

Some of my favorite lines from Some Things Last

This little exchange kills me (Chapter Four)

“Dee?”

“Yes, sweetie?”

“Are you my daddy, too?”

“Well…” Shit. He and Jimmy hadn’t talked about this one yet. “I’m your daddy’s boyfriend so not quiet. He’s your daddy. But I can be your Dean.”

“Okay,” Claire said, sticking her thumb back in her mouth. “Dee?”

“What sweetheart?”

“I want chicky nuggets.”

 

This is Dean, being a shit as usual. (Chapter Four) 

“Nice waterfall,” Dean said, knocking his knuckles against the plaster rocks. There was a freaking water feature in the middle of the church grounds, one with a flowing waterfall was as tall as Dean himself flowing into a pool of clear water. It was nice but probably expensive as all hell.

“It’s the baptismal,” Michael said, passing Dean and eyeing the way he and Jimmy’s hands were laced together.

Dean rolled his eyes. “Whatever happened to good old fashioned lakes?”

“Lakes are unsanitary,” Hael said.

“Well God made lakes. That waterfall was built by a contractor.”

“Dean,” Jimmy said his name like a threat, slipping his hand out of Deans.

Dean rolled his eyes. “Come on babe, you don’t have to do that.”

“I’d really just like to get out of this in one piece.”

“Why? Is this one of those ‘hate the sin’ churches? ‘Cause if it is 1) They can bite me and B) we don’t even live in this state so they can double bite me.”

 

This just makes me giggle. (Chapter Seven)

“So, you stressed out about it for a month and it wasn’t even that big of a deal.”

“I was curious, Sam. That’s not a crime.”

“No, but you got obsessive about it for nothing.”

“I still don’t see what the problem is.”

Sam huffed. “Just…promise me you’re not going to obsess about it and get yourself stressed out over nothing. Dad wasn’t amused, and I don’t want you fucking up what you have with Jimmy because you just need to know.”

“I won’t obsess about it,” Dean said.

“Good.”

 ——-

Dean was obsessing about it.

And the “someone pukes on Cas” count goes but to three now.  (Cas talking to Dean about when Jimmy got his tattoo.) (Chapter Seven) 

Cas said, “I have no idea. But he wanted it and by god, he got it. The second that needle touched his skin he made this high-pitched squeal.”

“Oh, no,”

“No, it gets better. The tattoo artist manhandles him back onto the chair, and he calms down a little bit, so the artist gets back to it. You’ve seen it, you know this tattoo isn’t that big, but the whole time he’s holding onto my hand and digging in with his nails. I had bruises for three days afterward. Anyway, after it’s all said and done, he looks me in the eyes and says, “hey, that wasn’t so bad” and promptly pukes all over my shoes.”

Cas, Jimmy, and Sam when they’re all a little tipsy. (Chapter Eight)

“You know, I’ve never seen you drunk, Jim. Kinda nice to see you loosen up, not be so straight-laced all the time,” Sam said.

Jimmy snorted. “Oh, honey, there’s nothing straight about me.”

Sam rolled his eyes. “Yeah, kinda got that when you started dating my brother. I just meant usually you’ve got such a stick up your ass.”

“Stick, no. Dean’s – “ Castiel clamped his hand over Jimmy’s mouth.

“I’m sorry,” Castiel said, “I’d say he’s not usually like this, but unfortunately….”

Sam’s eyebrows were so far up his forehead they were hidden in the silky bangs of his hair. He giggled, a wide smile blossoming across his face. “Nah, man, this is gold. I can’t wait to give him shit about this when he’s sober.”

Jimmy squirmed, licking at Castiel’s palm. Castiel withdrew his hand. “Gross!” He dragged his palm across his jeans and Jimmy laughed.

“Serves you right,” Jimmy said.

Some Things Last Self-Promotion (part 1)

Some Things You Probably Didn’t know about Some Things Last

  • Of the characters in the fic, the author is most like Jimmy in terms of personality. That’s right, I’m a flirty, sarcastic, neurotic dweeb who likes alcoholic slurpees.
  • The original idea for the fic was to have Cas seduce Dean away from Jimmy in an act of revenge and then for them to all feel like absolute cocks afterward BUT @ltleflrt suggested the much softer version you see today. She suggested that Cas and Dean both see how much Jimmy cared for the other and try to step aside.
  • There was a scene at Amelia’s funeral where Cas and Jimmy stare at each other but don’t speak. It was almost included, but I would have had to write it two ways (to get both Cas and Jimmy’s points of view) and I didn’t want to rehash it when I could just summarize with their memories.
  • There was also, originally a chapter that detailed Dean and Jimmy getting together but I cut that, too.
  • Claire was almost completely cut out, but I thought she was cute and added some lightness to certain scenes. @samanddeaninpanties saved her, honestly.
  • Chuck’s injuries were my father’s injuries from his near fatal accident a few years back.
  • Chapter 12 has a huge Welcome to Night Vale reference in it because I’m a giant dork. It’s literally the only reason I had them in an Arby’s.
  • I didn’t have a title for the fic (not one I really liked) until I finished the final chapter. I was listening to Tom O’dell’s Heal and the song really resonated with the tone of the final chapter and the whole point of the fic which is – You can fuck up pretty hard sometimes, but sometimes it’s not the end of the world. Sometimes you need time. Sometimes everyone needs perspective. But no everything has to end in tragedy and some things can last. (This was something I needed to remind myself of specifically.)
  • There was originally going to be a subplot revolving around how much Cas and Jimmy’s family knew about what went on between the two of them but I also cut that because I didn’t care that much about it.
  • All of the sex scenes are written from the POV of the top. I didn’t mean for that, but that’s what happened.  
  • The unicorn tattoo is the fault of @maliciouslycreative and the reason for my “unicorns for jimmy” tag. 
  • The art was done by @dragonpressgraphics and it is absolutely amazing. 

I haven’t read nearly as much of your stuff as I should have so… Which fic are you most proud of? And just for fun if you want, I’ll be curious, why? I’ll start my reasing there. :) (If it’s a non-au Destiel though, I’m really, really, /really/sorry, but do you have a second?)

You know, I don’t think I actually write much that isn’t an AU… my rare pairs tend to be more canon!verse I think. Regardless – 

The fic I’m most proud of is Some Things Last. It’s deanjimstiel, and was my entry for the DCJ bang this last year. Of all the fics I’ve written, it’s the most personal to me even though there isn’t a whole lot in it that’s based off my own life experience (some but not a lot). I will say that I project pretty hard onto Jimmy and there’s a lot more of me in him than there is of me in other characters. It’s the longest thing I’ve ever written at just over 60k. I really do think it’s my best fic, too. I have a few things I wish I did differently, but it’s what it is and I’m really damn happy with it. It’s angsty, funny, sweet, and parts of it make my heart ache. I don’t wanna ramble and say talk about what I think makes it really good because I don’t wanna sound like I have a big head or anything, but I do think one of the strengths with it is that there is a lot of varied emotion in it and everyone has their own issues they’re dealing with. I think I did a damn good job, if I do say so myself. 

If that’s not really your speed, there are two other fics I’m also pretty proud of. They’re much shorter and very pwp but I liked them a lot. (I have a hard time finishing long fics, aparently.) 

Four Can Play at That Game is winjimstiel and it’s so ridiculous. Like, it’s competitive sexting, so it can’t really get more silly than that imo. But I had a blast with it. 

Bliss is also one I’m very happy with it. Early season wincest, no angst, just pwp and bottom!Dean. It was a surprise to me ‘cause I wrote it on a whim and it flowed really easily. 

can i ask you 2 and 7 for Some Things Last? I think i reblogged that fanfiction question thingy from you twice but never actually sent in an ask! *MEEP!*

2: What scene did you first put down?
The first scene because I write in a very linear way. 

7: Where did the title come from?
Heal by Tom Odell. But specifically this part: 
And take my past and take my sins,
Like an empty sail takes the wind.

And heal, heal, heal, heal.

And tell me some things last.
And tell me some things last.

I didn’t have a title for it up until like, a week before drafts were due, but then I was listening to music on youtube and I found this little gem and it just fit the whole feel of the last two chapters and what I was trying to do with the fic as a whole. It just worked so I used it! 

Thanks. 

(Also, I’m not sure which fic you wanted with the other ask. :/ I haven’t written anything called First Kiss.) 

Ask me about stuff I’ve written! 

Some Things Last

I know I was going say it does have like a positive impact as well but the word count got to me ��

No worries.
That’s the funny thing though, right? It’s this thing that should screw everything up but it doesn’t. Well, okay, there’s a hot minute in there where everything is totally screwed but then they all have to use words and have an actually discussion.

So as promised I read your DCJBB it was great, this is the first like angsty dcj fic I’ve read where the tension is between Cas and Jimmy and not about adding a Third and I loved it, seriously you did a good job. With the infidelity tag which I know you were worried about being a thing that makes people turn away I think you should like mention how little detail it focuses on in the beginning notes cause some people might think it’s a full secret affair rather than one “small” instance.

Well, thank you! The Cas/Jimmy stuff was honestly my favorite part to work with. Lots of natural tension to work with there, imo. 

That might be a good point to mention. I mean, in the notes I do just flat out state that it’s just a kiss and it has major consequences, but I think letting everyone know I don’t go into detail might also help. And of course, it’s not like “just a kiss” isn’t an important deal, just that it wasn’t a full blown affair. 

Forget-Me-Not gave me the sniffles. It was really fucking emotional. Four Can Play at that Game is really fucking sexy, like wow. Looking forward to hitting the *big* revelations in Some Things Last!

ugh. duuuuude. 

Forget-Me-Not made me cry while I wrote it. I’m damn proud of that fic. 

Four Can Play at that Game was fucking fun as hell. I don’t know where half that shit came from though. Like, I re-read it the other day and I was  like “oh yeah there’s office sex in this” lol. It was a blast. 

How far are you in Some Things Last? Chapter… five now right? I think there’s a little reprieve from angst for a bit but once things start hitting the fan…
I just love that fic so damn much. Those poor, stubborn bastards. lol.

I’m going to have to go with Some Things Last, because it’s the longest thing of yours I have read and I just finished it today. I know I left a comment on AO3, but I wanted to use the ask game as a chance to reiterate that I loved how not easy you made things. That everyone had to work through things, and how Dean didn’t believe, originally, that he could be a part of anything with Jimmy and Cas in each other’s lives. Seriously <3

Thank you! 

It’s also the longest thing I’ve written to date. Maybe that will change but as of now it’s the longest thing I have up. 

Some Things Last is so special to me. I really couldn’t make it easy on any of them because well, that would be too easy. 😉 They all had to grow and work through their own issues alone and together. And yeah, it was important to me that Dean not only has some issues believing that he couldn’t be a part of what Cas and Jimmy were together but that he act on that. All three of them are ridiculously stubborn and that had to have consequences. 

What do think of when you think of my writing?