threshie:

rosemoonweaver:

Destiel. Canonverse. Heavy Angst. Drug Abuse. Divergent after 13×01. (So MCD y’all) 

It’s been months since Cas died. Months since Dean burned his body. Months since Mom disappeared through that rift and the world got a whole lot darker. Perhaps that’s why Dean isn’t on his A game and gets snatched by a djinn and wakes up a mechanic, living in Wichita with his husband Cas and their adopted daughter. Mom’s there, alive. Sam’s married to Eileen and they have a kid. It’s beautiful, even if Dean knows it’s a lie. It’s all over when Sam shows up, though, tearing through the dream and saving Dean’s life. In some ways, it’s worse than watching everything fall apart all over again. 

But… it gives Dean an idea. If the djinn weren’t feeding off their victims, maybe the poison wouldn’t actually be that bad. Maybe. If Dean takes some, well… no one needs to know. 

The poison, it turns out, provides not one but a million opportunities for Dean to have what he really wants. He can re-live high school fumbling his way through a school boy crush, a sailor with a strange sea creature trapped in his net, a movie star with a cocky, stubborn co-star. In every one he’s got Cas and Sam and everyone he’s ever lost. In every one he’s got a second chance to do it right. 

Except Dean finds himself needing a higher and higher dose to fall asleep and he’s taking longer and longer to wake and Sam is getting suspicious. 

I thought the title might inspire angst and boy did it ever! I love it. This is a great opportunity to write several genres of Destiel (merfolk AU, high school AU, movie star AU, etc) while still technically being canon verse.

I see your pining, mourning Dean drug abuse fic and raise you more tragedy where Dean’s fantasies always end with him and Cas dying together. Dean feels they should have died together (maybe they were about to, and Sam pulled him out of the situation at the last second and couldn’t also rescue Cas.)

Maybe eventually he doesn’t wake up, and the last fantasy scene he plays out is that first scene of the fic again, only Sam doesn’t get there in time and he and Cas finally die together.

On that note, the song The Willow by Jasmine Thompson could be the theme song for this fic. Just listen to the lyrics:

Down by the water, under the willow

Sits a lone ranger, minding the willow

He and his wife, once lived happily

Planted a seed, that grew through the reeds

Summers, and winters

Through snowy decembers

Sat by the water, close to the embers

Missing out the lives that they once had

Before

I wouldn’t leave you, i would hold you

When the last day comes

What if you need me?

Won’t you hold me?

On the last day, our last day…

Okay but what if it’s even worse? What if our world!Sam has been trying to find a way to bring Cas and their mom back but Dean’s just completely hopeless about it. Sam keeps trying though, but by the time he does finally get Cas back they can’t save Dean. This time Dean and Cas die in his Dean and Dean dies for real. 

Love the song by the way.