enemies to lovers thing?

Honestly, I’ve just always been a writer. When I was very little, I used to get frustrated because I couldn’t write the way I wanted to. I’m talkin’ like, 5 years old, little. I couldn’t write letters properly or spell many words so I wound up drawing until I figured out how to write words. Then I had a lot of issues spelling and I had to figure out different ways of writing things down so that I could express what I wanted to. (Like, if I couldn’t spell “jagged” I would say that a monster had “teeth like a broken fence” or something.) Writing has been a part of my life since before I could actually do it. I’ve always had stories in my head.

In terms of inspiration, it’s literally anything and everything. Music inspires me. Television inspires me. My own daydreams inspire me. I’ve described it before like this: I have stories in my head constantly and if I don’t write them down and share them, what’s the point of them existing? Anything and everything makes me want to tell a story.

Motivation is tricky because sometimes I lack it. I lack a lot of it, actually. I struggle with depressive episodes a lot and they tend to suck the joy right out of everything. Sometimes I literally cannot write, but that’s okay because I know it will pass. But sometimes I struggle with doing it even when I’m feeling okay. What really keeps me going are a) deadlines and b) the joy of sharing. I want to share my worlds with people. I need to, really. The fact that there are people out there who are just as interested in my worlds as I am keeps me going. I’d probably still do it if no one cared (I did for years when I was trying to get published) but knowing people like what I’m writing helps tremendously.

What’s your all time favorite fic?

All time forever favorite fic is Put Up Your Dukes by saltyfeathers. It kills me every time and I’ve read it 5 or 6 times. It’s destiel set in canon and it’s told from Dean’s POV. The whole thing is really funny and Dean is incredibly neurotic. Cas is also a little shit and Sam is long-suffering and he’s got some good lines, too. I love the fic. It’s not too angsty or fluffy but it’s a fic I really love.

But, The Siren and the Sea Monster by @ltleflrt is my second favorite. I just love it a lot. Dean works for Cain and plays guitar, Cas is an octopus…mermaid…person…? But it’s really sweet and I adore it. Also, tentacles because I’m one of those people. And Cas asking Dean if he’s a siren is the cutest damn thing ever.

What is your favorite story that you have written? What is your favorite fanfic by someone else?

I’ll sound like a broken record if I say Some Things Last again, so I’ll talk about my second favorite.

Under the Surface. (AKA Dean gets captured a whole fucking lot.) It’s a destiel, fantasy-ish, pirate au. Because you know what’s awesome? Pirate Captain!Cas, that’s what’s awesome. I actually had a lot of fun writing this fic and I got to be really nerdy about pirates! I spent a lot of time thinking about it and how to do it and what would work. It’s Prince!Dean, Pirate!Cas, kidnapping, pirate battles, adventure, stargazing, and a smidge of political/monarchical stuff. I don’t want to give too much away because I actually like the way it evolved but I think if you like aus that are less “romance” and more “falling in love and oh, shit, we’ve got a problem” I think you’ll like it. I know I did. (And the ending is cheesy.)

My favorite fic by someone else? Absolute favorite?

Put Up Your Dukes by saltyfeathers. (Destiel, canon verse)
Dean’s got enough neurotic shit goin’ on in this fic to last me a life time, but what really sold me was chapter four. Like, holy shit. Dean gives this whole long, rambling explanation about parallels and it’s the funniest fuckin’ thing I’ve read in a long time. Also, shout out to Sam for being the most patient dude in the whole universe, and for the line “Do I get the bedroom eyes for not using my radio, too?” It’s such a good fic and it includes a lot of my favorite things, too. (Dean being anxious about all kinds of shit, Cas being a sassy and clever fucker, and Sam being a loving little brother but a little brother none the less.) It’s also got a neat monster!

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1/2 In canon, I think Dean would top when he and Cas first got together. Partially cuz he’s not ready to be that vulnerable, and partially cuz he’s excited to show Cas all about sex so he wants to take the lead. Then, as he and Cas got to really trust each other physically, he would want to bottom because Dean LOVES to be taken care of. And he doesn’t like to admit it, but he really likes to not be in control because he’s so very tired of worrying about being in control of everything.

2/2 For once, he just wants to be vulnerable and let someone else take the reins. Cas on the other hand has constantly been out of control, particularly when it comes to Dean’s safety. So Can generally likes to top, because he loves to have control in this one aspect of his life – to have control of Dean’s pleasure and be able to take care of him. That’s my headcanon anyway ✌

I can see it. And I can see Dean being super freaking attentive when he tops for Cas because how could he not be, right? Like, I just think Dean’s a really giving lover and giving his partner pleasure gives him pleasure. So having Cas underneath him, a little blown away by all the new sensations would be just as fun for Dean as it is for Cas. And of course, Dean would be just as attentive to Dean when the tables are turned.

I just like the idea of give and take with these two. Like, they really enjoy getting lost in each other and providing each other with what they need, whatever that may be.

I’d love to talk about my kinks but they’re like NOT encouraged in any way… I wish I was just into BDSM or whatever.. though I do like breath play coughs. Anyway, what are YOUR favourite headcanons for Destiel?

Breath play can be fun, esp with Dean and Cas. I’ve read several fun destiel breath play fics. mmmm.

My favorites are totally dependant on what version of these characters we’re talkin’ about. Like, if it’s angel!Cas I have a huge thing about Dean tugging on Cas’s wings and having it drive him absolutely crazy. Also, Cas glowing and causing lights to shatter in whatever room they’re in when he comes. Or like, Dean realizing partway through that he’s essentially having sex with a being that’s more force of nature than human and kind of getting off on the idea that Castiel could literally do anything to him (maybe a bit of fear kink in there).

If we’re talking human!Cas I love the idea of their sex life starting out really timid. Like, every act is desperate in a way because they’re both overwhelmed and excited and happy but they can’t get their hands to stop shaking and they have to go slow or they’re going to wind up frantic and it’s all gonna be over way too fast. Obviously, as they get used to each other they mellow out, but I can see the first time or two being timid in a way. (But I’m a sucker for that kind of shit so that’s just me.)

Also, I like the idea that they’re kind of exhibitionists. Like, maybe the first time it’s right after a hunt and the adrenaline is racing so they just kinda… screw in a graveyard. And then Dean makes some comment about them being the envy of every Byronic teenage boy and Cas is like “do what now?” because Dean’s definitely going to admit to that super brief time when he was fifteen and thought it might be cool impress goth girls and so he read a lot of Romantic literature and wore eyeliner that one time. (But that’s a headcanon for another day. Anyway…) But Cas kinda likes the risk and Dean’s got a bit of a thrill seeking streak in him so they wind up trying to tease each other and get each other off in places they really shouldn’t be having sex.