@chiisana-sukima replied to your post “@unforth-ninawaters replied to your post “Alrighty.  I’m antsy and…”

Yeah, what @unforth-ninawaters​ said. and also certain things can just become symbolic in your mind for certain emotional states, for no logical reason whatsoever, and then when you’re feeling the emotional state you’ll sometimes dream the symbol, even if the state has nothing to do with the symbol.

For a really stupid example, when im very anxious, I’ll often dream of appliances that wont turn off. its the dumbest thing in the world, and its fucking TERRIFYING.

its super-annoying if the symbol your brain picks through its own convoluted processes of association is a person, but it doesnt mean the emotion has anything to do with person irl.

(i occasionally dream of my ex too. we havent seen each other in >20 yrs and i have no feelings towards him anymore one way or the other. he was a dick sometimes and a good guy sometimes, whatever. dont know why my brain associates him with anxiety. he never made me anxious irl)

Hmm. Maybe I should start keeping a dream journal to see if I can figure out if there’s a correlation there. If there’s some kind of other reason I keep dreaming about him I’d like to know, that way I can keep myself from being so irritated about it. If there’s some kind of convoluted association my brain is making with him I’d probably be able to reason with myself a little better so I might just try a dream journal to figure it out. 

And even if I don’t figure it out, just knowing that other people experience this kind of thing and having reassurance that our brains do weird things helps a lot. 

@unforth-ninawaters replied to your post “@unforth-ninawaters replied to your post “Alrighty.  I’m antsy and…”

I get exactly that feeling and it always leaves me this unpleasant feeling like “oh god do I unconsciously still want him” but I truly don’t think that’s it. I think it’s precisely that we do still have things that we need to process about those relationships – in my case I can still get pissed about things he said and did 15 years ago of I think about it too much – and for some reason that processes in fucked up dreams? (And you didn’t specify but mine are usually

Sexual which is extra uncomfortable because if that son of a bitch ever tried to touch me again…shuddering just imagining it ugh)

It does make sense that our brains would still try to process things. I think I read somewhere that one of the functions of dreams is to help you problem solve, so it does make sense that that would be part of what’s going on. Still, I almost wish my brain wouldn’t decide to try to fix *that* particular problem. 

And yeah, unfortunately mine are usually sexual. Which pisses me off even more because he was a piece of shit who didn’t respect boundaries. Which, I guess could be my brain again trying to work things out. I definitely think if I ever came face to face with him again I’d hurt him. And if he even tried to touch me? Forget it. He’d lose a finger or two. I kinda almost wish I could break his face, but that wouldn’t really solve anything.

I will say that last night I dreamed he answered the door naked and apparently my brain decided to seriously under-represent parts of his anatomy so that makes me laugh a little. He was the type who thought his dick was the answer to everything so I guess I can laugh at that. 

@unforth-ninawaters replied to your post “Alrighty.  I’m antsy and irritated and prone to being a bit snapish…”

Fwiw it’s been a decade plus since I dumped my first serious boyfriend and I still occasionally have dreams about him (and like you my response to this oh god no no no no). I know it’s disquieting but try not to let it get you down, brains are just fricken weird.

Thank you. That actually does make me feel a lot better. I know I still have some hang-ups about our relationship because of a lot of personal stuff I don’t really want to get into, but I almost felt like my own brain was trying to trick me into wanting him back or something. It’s irritating, but knowing that it happens to other people does help a lot. 

3, 4, 23!

3. What is the rarest pair (that you personally ship)? 
Sam/Jimmy probably? Or maybe Jody/Jimmy? I think those two are probably the rarest ships I have. I don’t think I could name 5 people who like those two. 

4. Name a popular ship that you don’t get the appeal of. 
Hmmmm. Honestly I don’t think I can. I don’t tink there’s a single ship I can think of that makes me go “why?” b/c if it makes me go “why?” I try to figure it out. I suppose I can see the appeal of pretty much any ship, even if I’m not personally into it. 

I guess if I had to pick something, I’d say any ship with Lucifer in it (even though those aren’t really *popular* ships). He just doesn’t appeal to me as a character and when I’m shipping I either have to like both characters or hate them and want them as miserable as possible. Obviously I don’t have issues with anyone who does like Lucifer ships, but I just don’t really *get* it, if that makes sense? Intellectually I understand the whole “sympathy for the Devil” thing and the “misunderstood outcast” thing from stuff like Milton, but I’m just not that into it. 

23. Have you ever started shipping something because of the fans? 
I’ve had friends who’ve suggested that I should ship something or started giving me headcanons and ideas and got me into certain ships, so maybe? The quickest way to make me ship things is honestly to be my friend and share your excitement over a thing. 

 Honestly, I’m probably more likely to ship things b/c people hate them. It makes me curious and irritated so I wind up spite shipping until it becomes a legit ship.

Thanks! 

Ship asks! 

@samanddeaninpanties replied to your post:
Alrighty.  I’m antsy and irritated and prone to…

Have you ever tried lucid dreaming? If you have a knack for it, you could potentially change any shitty dream you have into something awesome.

I’ve tried it but I don’t seem to have the hang of it get. I know I’m dreaming. I know there are things going on that I don’t like. But I just can’t seem to actually change anything. It’s a pain in the ass let me tell you.

16 & 17 for the ask game :)

16. Is there a ship that made you realize something about yourself? 
Hmmmm. That’s kind of a hard question I think because to me the answer is yes, all of them. Maybe I’m a little over-analytical, but I feel like every ship has some kind of core attraction that draws a person in for whatever reason. For a ship like megstiel, for example, it’s this kind of “opposites attract, there’s a little good in the bad girl and a little bad in the good guy” kind of thing that I think pulls me in. So like, looking at that, I suppose it shows me that I like the idea of people coming together and bringing out better qualities in each other. 

I think there’s something in every ship I enjoy that says something about me. I love interesting character dynamics, so maybe that’s what I realized. 

17. Is there a type of ship you always go for? 
Oh yes. Drama and angst are pretty much a must. I love stories where there’s something huge keeping lovers apart, whether that’s a war or physical space or even one character’s personal issues. I love love stories where characters have to compromise with each other, where the can be better (or worse) people because of each other, and where they’re just not quite allowed to be together for whatever reason. Of course, I’m a huge sap so I want to see them overcome their adversities and get together in the end, but I want them to earn it. 

Thanks! 

Ship asks! 

Alrighty. 

I’m antsy and irritated and prone to being a bit snapish today b/c last night I had yet another dream involving my ex. I don’t know why he keeps haunting me, but he is so I’m frustrated (at myself) because it’s been four years and I really don’t want to see this asshole anymore. 

So that’s where I’m at. I don’t know what difference it makes but I just felt like saying something.