I hadn’t had an honest to god panic attack in about a month, which was really good for me, actually. I’d had anxiety spikes but not the whole heart pounding, on the verge of crying, oh-my-god-i’m-going-to-die-i’m-a-bad-person-everyone-hates-me-i’d-rather-you-hit-me-why-won’t-you-just-hit-me-i-can’t-take-it-anymore kind of panic. 

The good news is that it’s over now and I’m not terrified of everything and I think I’ve identified a new trigger so. Good for me, I guess.