@unforth-ninawaters replied to your post “@unforth-ninawaters replied to your post “Alrighty.  I’m antsy and…”

I get exactly that feeling and it always leaves me this unpleasant feeling like “oh god do I unconsciously still want him” but I truly don’t think that’s it. I think it’s precisely that we do still have things that we need to process about those relationships – in my case I can still get pissed about things he said and did 15 years ago of I think about it too much – and for some reason that processes in fucked up dreams? (And you didn’t specify but mine are usually

Sexual which is extra uncomfortable because if that son of a bitch ever tried to touch me again…shuddering just imagining it ugh)

It does make sense that our brains would still try to process things. I think I read somewhere that one of the functions of dreams is to help you problem solve, so it does make sense that that would be part of what’s going on. Still, I almost wish my brain wouldn’t decide to try to fix *that* particular problem. 

And yeah, unfortunately mine are usually sexual. Which pisses me off even more because he was a piece of shit who didn’t respect boundaries. Which, I guess could be my brain again trying to work things out. I definitely think if I ever came face to face with him again I’d hurt him. And if he even tried to touch me? Forget it. He’d lose a finger or two. I kinda almost wish I could break his face, but that wouldn’t really solve anything.

I will say that last night I dreamed he answered the door naked and apparently my brain decided to seriously under-represent parts of his anatomy so that makes me laugh a little. He was the type who thought his dick was the answer to everything so I guess I can laugh at that.