@samanddeaninpanties
I know. Like, obviously it’s bullshit and I could just not post fricken anything for 20 years and it would be totally fine. Logically, I know I’m not a disappointment, it’s just that stupid persistent nagging that’s there. I thought being more productive might help but nah. It’s not a productivity problem, it’s a thoughts problem.

I’m a little torn between continuing to try to meet my goal for the end of the month or purposefully refusing to meet it. On one hand, if I try I can at least have that for peace of mind, but if I choose not to play into my own weird productivity thing, I won’t have missed the goal because I said screw it. There are literally no consequences, of course, but brains are dumb.