I’ve had mild gender issues my whole life, and it kind scares me, so I don’t look too deeply into stuff about how people feel because, yeah, scary. I wrote a fic about Dean always feeling like she was a girl, and a lot of the smaller feelings and such in that fic were my own feelings about myself, only I’m female so I had to switch it around. Sorry you’re feeling all these things and having a hard time sorting it out. *hugs*

*hugs* Scary is definitely the word I would use to describe it. And I’m sorry you’ve had issues with your gender, too. It’s kinda difficult to wrap my brain around ‘cause it’s like, I didn’t realize it was a thing that wasn’t “typical” if you know what I mean. I just needed to get it all out there in the open and talk about it because I can’t really do that anywhere else. I dunno where I’ll go from here, but at least it’s out there and I’m not holding it in anymore.